Questioning (no one understands)

There is an S on my chest on my chest
I used my heart as the crest
Like I am ready to save him
*No one understands*
They'll just stand there and hear my cry
I'm a bomb ready to detonate
*No one understands*
Love him so much I can barely breath
When I'm with him
People are on the outside looking in
That's why it's called window pain
It's my dangerous love affair
Because it's my only escape
Dream mentally
When I close my eyes
All I see is black
Drifting in a sea of pity
Wondering how to die
Life is a crash course
My way out should be suicide
Only if we could have met in some other life
Would even be better if he was Adam and I was Eve
I can only dream
*People just don't understand*
Parents love just doesn't satisfy me
I want to find the man to complete thee
What my mom couldn't find
Even until now
For so long I stop holding myself up with pride
I only had a feeling to die
I'm surprised I didn't shove pie
Down my throat hoping to choke
Ready to detonate
In 5..4..3..2..1
*No one understands*

Mother of all mothers

What do you do when you have the Mother of all mothers?
But it hurts when you don't know who to run to
When the mother of all mother's give up on you
You don't know what to do
So how do you feel when the mother of all mother's hit you
A lot of things that go thru
That horrific mind of thee
So who do you run to when you need love
With all this this pride you have to keep it secret
.......... if you want more just tell me and I will post the rest