Questioning (no one understands)

There is an S on my chest on my chest
I used my heart as the crest
Like I am ready to save him
*No one understands*
They'll just stand there and hear my cry
I'm a bomb ready to detonate
*No one understands*
Love him so much I can barely breath
When I'm with him
People are on the outside looking in
That's why it's called window pain
It's my dangerous love affair
Because it's my only escape
Dream mentally
When I close my eyes
All I see is black
Drifting in a sea of pity
Wondering how to die
Life is a crash course
My way out should be suicide
Only if we could have met in some other life
Would even be better if he was Adam and I was Eve
I can only dream
*People just don't understand*
Parents love just doesn't satisfy me
I want to find the man to complete thee
What my mom couldn't find
Even until now
For so long I stop holding myself up with pride
I only had a feeling to die
I'm surprised I didn't shove pie
Down my throat hoping to choke
Ready to detonate
In 5..4..3..2..1
*No one understands*